Communication

Is communication truly an art? and is it lost? Well  yeah, lost on me. Sometimes emotions really get in the way and can really jack up the whole meeting of the minds. And it only gets worse when I don't try and communicate when I really ought to. I have such a bad habit of keeping things all bottled up, which does not bode well for marriage. I mean I realize there is a difference between griping and really being open but sometimes when you keep things to yourself for a while something small happens and then things blow up, seemingly over nothing.
That's bad. That leaves my husband standing there scratching his head wondering where I lost my mind. Poor guy. Come to think of it, most arguments could probably be avoided all together if I knew how to express myself a little more clearly. The trouble is, I don't know what I'm feeling half the time! And doggone it! It would really help if he could read minds! Okay maybe I'm not that big a mess. I mean I try to explain situations and be factual about the issues I may be having (my husband understands factual best) but sometimes I think it gets lost in translation. We are just mot on the same brain wave.
Part of me thinks that after almost 10 years of marriage, he should know me better. Then I remember, Men and Women are simply wired differently. This is where the art of communication comes in. You know, that whole speaking with I statements, repeating back what you heard to be sure you heard it right. That stuff is really hard though, especially when your mad. Alright so I'll work on my communication skills, but I hereby reserve the right to blow up and say incoherent things periodically should I feel the need to blow off steam.
And honey if it looks like I've gone around the bend, I probably have, but don't worry, if you wait patiently, I'll be back when I feel a lil better!